It is super stupid that I am literally crying right this very fucking moment. It's not suppose to be that sad but I don't know why I am stupidly crying. The situation doesn't deserve it, really. But my hormones told me to let it out! My god. But at least I have a reason to be sad rather than be sad without any reason at all. That'd be weird.
My one not so good reason for wetting my pillow with tears tonight is that this news that I heard earlier. We were doing the experimentation on our thesis at Veterans when suddenly the staff came in and blah blah blah they talked to our groupmates who are currently working there...one of the staff is a batchmate of the guy that I am weeping about. The guy that I have mentioned in my earlier blogs for a few times. And my friend asked that staff about the guy. Then she went in and told me what she (the staff) said. The fucking news was broken to me like normal stuff...course it wouldnt bother them cause this shit aint no big deal to anybody else but me. But honestly, it made me sadder than having to know that the most recent guy that I like is engaged.
Why do they have to exist?! Why does it have to be kind of genetic?! And of all the peoplein the world, why him?....
I may be way too over dramatic but the moment the news was broken, I felt heavy on the inside...we may not have met yet, but my hope was still up til tonight. :'(
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